Once more...

I feel like I'm eating myself away from the inside out.
Like every bit of inside of me is being scraped away until all I am is an empty skeleton with flesh hanging onto it.
My soul is crying  for something that I could never give it.

No matter how lonely we feel we are never truly alone. We weren't born alone we wont die alone.Our mother was there, the doctor was there, anyone could be there, the doctor could be there once more.
No matter how badly we want to be alone, we're surrounded by people.
No matter how many people we're surrounded by we feel alone.

We're all so many walking contradictions.
I don't understand the irony of this life.
I don't understand why we feel the way we feel.

I look at people that have someone, and the way their behavior is and I just think to myself how dumb they look.
I tried so long to convince myself that I hate relationships and now I really hate relationships. I'm so bitter.
I wish I didn't feel this way. I make myself sick too my stomach.

I want to sleep until this is all over.
And it's not even bad.
We're all playing the victims of this.

I'm just tired.

I could sleep forever. Sometimes life isn't worth what we go through.

I'm having an incredibly horrible night.

I wish I had medication to take that made it that I wasn't so crazy all the time.

I'm so tired of feeling bad about myself. I try so hard too feel good, but I can't.
I'm tired of being put on a pedal stole only to get broken apart.
I'm in a million different pieces.

I wish I had somewhere to go...but I don't. I feel so trapped.

Why can't I ever keep close friends? I could  really use a good friend right now.

Lately...

My life is up and down. I'm facing so many different directions right now, and I don't know which way to go.

We're on a three day weekend. Guess what I did? Basically nothing.
Friday, I almost caused an accident, had a horrible day/night, and then slept.
Saturday was amazing.
Sunday did nothing.
Today I've done nothing. Oh wait I went and looked for a job for like an hour.
I look cute today and I want to go out to dinner, but I have to finish all of my homework that I should have probably dedicated this weekend to doing.
I am so tired of school I could die. I can't wait to be done. Tomorrow I have SEOP's and I'm thinking about talking to the counselors about dropping my classes right now and finishing online so I don't have to do a lot of summer school.

I'm going to be starting another blog soon having to do with volunteering at the Charity Exchange every Saturday, and the fundraiser I'm expecting to be doing over the month of March, and The Heart Walk Foundation. 
I recommend you take a look at the websites.
http://www.charityanywhere.org/
http://www.heartwalkfoundation.org/